Thursday, August 21, 2014

Do Any Of You Other Moms Ever Feel Like This???

(Let me take a picture of myself in my natural habitat. The kitchen. Surely I'll eat, sleep, and die here at the rate I'm going... Boys are hungry!)

Since pushing out an 8.2 pound Radcliff two years ago (he ripped me apart in ways that will never be the same again, TMI!?), it's been hard for me to leave his and Wren's side, like ever, to take breaks for myself. I feel like every minute I have with my little family of three is precious time and I just hate missing out on anything! Thankfully, Wren really urges me often, to go and have some fun with girlfriends, sisters, or just on my own, while him and Rad have their man time. Geez I married a good one. He knows way more about me than I know about myself and when it's time for me to step back and have a break. Because when he took Radcliff to mutual last night with him, I headed down to City Creek to do a little shopping, and it was just what the doctor ordered.

My friend ended up meeting me there and we shopped and talked and talked talked, and went and got smoothies after (her the healthy green kind, and large and in charge me, a good old root beer freeze! Goll that was good...) and talked some more. Sometimes all you need is a little girl R&R. Can I get an amen?! Someone who is dramatic about all the same things you are. Someone who can talk about the million different shades of color you've been debating adding to your hair, for a half and hour, and not get sick of it. And then a million other little things even the most tender of men would hate subjecting their ears to.

As I drove home, I blasted a CD I burned (from Napster of course) when I was 15 years old. First of all, can I just say my fifteen year old self had impeccable, and I mean, impeccable, taste in music... Just to name a few, David Gray, The Cranberries, Michael Jackson. My 15 year old self made my 28 year old self proud last night. And to think Wren almost threw all my CDs away when we moved. I ought to slap him for even having the thought! But when David Gray's, This Years Love came on, I was immediately taken back to when I first heard the song on Dawson's Creek like a hundred years ago, when Pacey and Joey were swinging on a hammock at night, and it was playing in the background. There's been a love affair with me and that song ever since. Listening to it brought me back to so many fun times of being young and having little responsibility. Staying out till the middle of the night, hanging out with friends, dancing, doing all the things I loved and that made me feel like me!    

Being a mom is the most amazing thing I could have ever asked for. It's also hard. Really hard sometimes. Especially when you're pregnant and don't have much energy to do everything your little toddler wants you to be able to do. Mother's guilt I tell you! And as much as I have loved just throwing myself into this role, sometimes it feels like I've lost a little bit of myself too. After all, everything I did changed, from the minute we had him. So much responsibility landed on our shoulders in a matter of seconds (okay twenty hours of intense labor), but nothing can prepare you for that!

So here's to late nights out, just every once in awhile. Where you can blast your favorite songs, roll the windows down, and remember to throw in a little fun with all that responsibility that's laid out on your big girl plate! It did me good! But then the second I arrived home, I promptly ran into Radcliff's room because I could hear him talking to his 'friends' (stuffed animals) in his crib, which meant he wasn't asleep yet (score!). I got him out, set him on my lap, and asked him all about his night with Daddy while Wren and I listened. As we sat in his dark room, listening to him recount his whole night, I kissed his cheeks a million times and thought to myself, "But nothing compares to this."

Here's that David Gray song too, if you're interested. You should be.

Monday, August 18, 2014

Bear Lake

We drove our bad selves up to our annual Bear Lake vacation this past weekend. From hanging out with his aunties and cousins, playing on the beach, to riding on the boat and getting shakes, Radcliff loved every minute of it. He's turned into the best little traveler and everything is so much more fun when he's around! And he always is. So it's good :) It was fun to just relax, eat and catch up with everyone in our family too. Bear Lake is what summer is all about! Thanks for everything family! 

Wednesday, August 13, 2014

Pointless Nesting Talk That You'll Probably Be Bored By

I'm in full on nesting mode these days. What's with thinking I'll never be able to accomplish anything, ever again, once the baby comes? Maybe because I know I probably won't. It's funny, I've had this drive to get so much done, but haven't necessarily had the energy, so lots of the time I'm left a little annoyed at the never ending list that's playing over and over in my head. 

However, I do feel like I've been able to put a pretty good dent in my list of the littler to-dos. Slowly but surely, right!? I've pretty much given everything in my closet away and I'm sure I'll be sad about it once I'm not pregnant anymore and everything I got rid of, fits. Well, hopefully will fit... Nurse the pounds away my little newborn! Who am I kidding, if he doesn't, Rad will. That kid will never be weened. And it's mostly my fault. I'm so in love with nursing him. And speaking of pounds, what's with me gaining the recommended weight, with this pregnancy and the last, by the time I hit seven months? Looks like we'll be over that recommendation again. But back to my clothes... I wear all of like five outfits at the moment because nothing fits and it just seemed proper to get rid of the rest. Mhhh. The joys of having zero closet space. 

Speaking of, we converted the walk-in closet room back to a regular room to make way for the baby, which means all of everything Wren and I own is in our tiny closet in our room and a wardrobe from Ikea. And you know what? It actually works. I'm so proud that we have weeded through so much and our crap can stay comfortably (together) in one little room. Wren keeps saying, "It's just so nice having my stuff in the same room where I sleep!" Bless his little heart. 

I've gone through all of Rad's clothes from newborn age until now, and got rid of everything I knew I wouldn't use again and sorted everything by age group so it's all ready to put in New Baby's closet when he gets here! Can I tell you how great it is being able to use all the same stuff? It's awesome. 

The linen closet's all cleaned out, all the bathroom drawers and cupboards, I was just hucking things left and right and Wren was staring at me like I'd gone mad. "Sav, are you sure you don't want that???" "Yes sir. Yes I am." I just do not have it in me any longer to keep stuff, even if it's good stuff, that I know I will never use again. What's the point? Same scenario replayed in the basement. I went through every last drawer in our desk, TV console, and hutch and it's down to the necessities. I can finally breathe! Funny how having less stuff is so liberating while at the same time, leaves me wanting to buy more... First world problems for sure. 

Now onto the baby's nursery. Something I'm so excited to start! I didn't think I'd really lean this direction for his room, but I'm kind of feeling the industrial vibe. Trade Furniture has some fun furniture options:
Now what I'm really hoping for is that my Dad will build the baby a new industrial looking crib. Dad!? Holla at your girl!?

Monday, August 11, 2014

I Heart Bathtubs

Wren and I are finally getting around to replacing our ghetto bathtub, something I wish we would have just done when we first moved in. I'm loving the simple look of this square, white bathtub that Utopia offers. Imagine me, Radcliff, and New Baby soaking our bad selves twice a day in this. So much better than the nastified old, little tub that's currently there with the gross grout that refuses to come clean. I told Wren that mountain biking is his thing and taking baths is mine. He buys his nice gear, now it's my turn! ;) And he's always been more than happy to oblige. I'm just scared to live without a tub! We'll see how this goes! What are your thoughts on this?

Thursday, August 7, 2014

Bedspreads, One Of My Favorite Topics!

Maybe it's our tiny bedroom, maybe it's the severe nesting mode I've entered into, or probably I'm just crazy, but I've been getting the itch, again, to switch out our bedding. What's with me and bedding? Man. I found the funnest website for high quality, affordable bedding called The French Bedroom Company. They offer bed spreads with lots of crisp whiteness (my favorite!) and clean lines. If you're in the market, you must check it out!

Tuesday, August 5, 2014

The Best Straightener You Can Get!

Misikko sent me this Hana Elite Flat Iron late last year:
 And just like the HANAair Hair Dryer they sent me (see post here), it did not disappoint! Like at all. I wanted to give it some significant time before reviewing it on my blog. After all, the most important quality in a flat iron for me is that not only does it make my hair feel super smooth, but that it doesn't damage it in the process. I can happily say that my hair has never felt healthier and I have been using it for almost six months now. I straighten my hair every time I blow dry it so that's saying a lot! I can straighten my entire head in three minutes flat. Also saying a lot for me! Each section I straighten really only needs one or two passes of the straightener and, wala, it's straight. I don't know what they've done, but Misikko has seemed to have made the perfect straightener. And trust. I've used a million top grade straighteners over my lifetime because my hair is so curly and because I went to cosmetology school. Hands down my favorite straightener yet! If you've been looking for a good one, this is so worth the money. I promise!
Thanks Misikko!

Thursday, July 31, 2014

Baby, Numero Dos! 28 Weeks!

Well my Baby Center updates told me today that I'm officially into the third trimester. I can't believe how fast this pregnancy is going! I'm a little sad to leave the second trimester in the dust because everything is just so good in that one, you know? Everyone cross your fingers that the heart burn I suffered with while pregnant with Radcliff in the third trimester, doesn't repeat itself with this baby! So far so good! 

I feel like when I was pregnant with Radcliff, I had all the time in the entire world to document all of those precious firsts like hearing his heartbeat, feeling him kick for the first time, finding out he was a boy, down to all of the cravings, un-comforts, and emotions that came along with pregnancy. This time around, I feel like I have been so busy chasing my busy little you-know-who around (we won't name names), that I haven't had as much time to document these fun little milestones! 

Hearing this new little guy's heartbeat for the first time was just as incredible as hearing Rad's. I think we all go into that office for our first prenatal appointment a little bit nervous, and hearing his strong little heartbeat was so amazing. Add Radcliff to the scenario, smiling over my side, mimicking the 'boosh, boosh, boosh", of the heartbeat, and my heart could have exploded! My two little boys!

In the beginning of my pregnancy, I for sure thought I was another boy. Fast forward a few months, and I really had no inkling to what the baby would be. By the time I was at week 20, about to find out what we were having, I was pretty certain it was a girl. So when we went in for the ultrasound, and I saw his little you-know-what on the screen and exclaimed, "It's a boy!" It was like, duh, of course he's a boy. I could feel his sweet little spirit. Wren and I looked at each other and just laughed. Boys are really just the best! 

Feeling his little movements for the first time was so exciting too! It's funny, because I can already make out the different distinctions between the way Radcliff moved and how this new guy moves. You really can sense their little personalities in there. Feeling him move just never gets old. I love it and just can't wait to get my hands on him!

Radcliff loves talking about his new little brother and tells me all of the adorable things he plans to teach him about and help him with. I hope they want to do everything together! Cross your fingers for me... 
And if this new guy is anything like his older brother, I give it a year and a half and the truck/car/wheel situation in general, is going to be completely off the hook, like out of control at the Withers household. And I really don't think there's anything cuter. BROTHERS!